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BravoZulu said:
Well today was NOT a good day.

I qualified as an urban railcar driver just over a month ago after 6 months training.

This morning as I was coming into a train station a young man decided I was his ticket to nirvana and threw himself off the platform in front of my driving cab.

He's now an ex human being and I'm on compulsory leave until I am medically and mentally cleared to return to work.

I've had dozens of critical incidents during my almost 37 years of policing but I have never been involved in actively taking a life, until today. I know and understand that I'm not responsible in any way but I AM angry that the selfish prick used me as a way to take himself out.

I'll be fine but I'm not looking forward to the process I will have to go through to get to the other side in a wholesome piece. I've been here before , I can do it but I hate being placed in a position of having to go through it again at my age (68)

Peace, out
BZ
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Well S**t, i feel you... one time the cabin crew didnt give me the coffee the way I wanted it, almost quit and had to go to industrial leave. Practically a hero for staying.

Seriously, i couldnt imagine what you are going through, sucks that it had to be on your train. You'll pull through and hope you get back in that train. Hope you start feeling better sooner than later. FYI, dont be a train driver in Japan.
 
BravoZulu said:
Well today was NOT a good day.

I qualified as an urban railcar driver just over a month ago after 6 months training.

This morning as I was coming into a train station a young man decided I was his ticket to nirvana and threw himself off the platform in front of my driving cab.

He's now an ex human being and I'm on compulsory leave until I am medically and mentally cleared to return to work.

I've had dozens of critical incidents during my almost 37 years of policing but I have never been involved in actively taking a life, until today. I know and understand that I'm not responsible in any way but I AM angry that the selfish prick used me as a way to take himself out.

I'll be fine but I'm not looking forward to the process I will have to go through to get to the other side in a wholesome piece. I've been here before , I can do it but I hate being placed in a position of having to go through it again at my age (68)

Peace, out
BZ
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I feel your pain, Friend. Trains of any kind simply do not stop like the family sedan which is something people can't understand. I ran trains for decades and know about such things.
 
BravoZulu said:
Well today was NOT a good day.

I qualified as an urban railcar driver just over a month ago after 6 months training.

This morning as I was coming into a train station a young man decided I was his ticket to nirvana and threw himself off the platform in front of my driving cab.

He's now an ex human being and I'm on compulsory leave until I am medically and mentally cleared to return to work.

I've had dozens of critical incidents during my almost 37 years of policing but I have never been involved in actively taking a life, until today. I know and understand that I'm not responsible in any way but I AM angry that the selfish prick used me as a way to take himself out.

I'll be fine but I'm not looking forward to the process I will have to go through to get to the other side in a wholesome piece. I've been here before , I can do it but I hate being placed in a position of having to go through it again at my age (68)
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BravoZulu,
Sorry you were the one that just happened to be on shift when that poor soul decided to leave this earth. I would recommend you look at this incident as fate as things aligned for him to help ease his ending because you have the mental capacity to handle the repercussions a lot of people don't have the capacity. Work thru it, pray about it & realize that a higher power put you there in that exact moment & come out the other side stronger & better.
Buzzy
 
FLYNAVY said:
BravoZulu,
Sorry you were the one that just happened to be on shift when that poor soul decided to leave this earth. I would recommend you look at this incident as fate as things aligned for him to help ease his ending because you have the mental capacity to handle the repercussions a lot of people don't have the capacity. Work thru it, pray about it & realize that a higher power put you there in that exact moment & come out the other side stronger & better.
Buzzy
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The guy didnt pick you, he picked your train. whatever he was going through is over. Hopefully sleep on it, process it, talk to family and friends, and move on. it may not be explainable or understandable to you or us.
 
Participated in confirmation party for one of my brothers kid.

Had to select a brick in the wall and stare at it through the songs, to not burst out laughing and cause them a childhood trauma.
 
@BravoZulu sorry to hear that mate, I'm sure you're all over it, not your fault, entirely his, hoping you can quickly come to grips with it and not bear it as too heavy a weight to carry with you moving forward.
 
Friday eve and pretty much whole Saturday we spent, along my mothers family celebrating my cousins 50th birthday. I did make the crack that reaching “half century” maybe was a bit tough, overall a great time. He’s many childhood buddies most of whom I didn’t know, but some moderate booze is, as per the saying the social lubricant it is we pretty much all had a great time. Bit sleepless now, not in Seattle but kinda sleepless.
 
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